Akamaru-wolf

i see no point in living anymore im just a useless person that will never be happy and that was just confirmed so i know what im saying i am not putting this up for pity or for people to comment on and try to change my thoughts so if that is your intent when you see/read this just dont and ive never been this hurt before i thought my last pain was unsurpassable but i was wrong i love you all and especially my ex mate and first and only true love garrou i hope you all will treat him well and help him reach his goals

well this week has started off with monday afternoon i learned that my family dog hunter died i was really affected because hunter was mostly my dog because of the special attention and time i spent just petting and cuddling my sweet dog who i will never get to see again.  and now last night (tuesday night) i lost my job and am now stuck to start my job hunt till after the thanksgiving holiday week so honestly im not going to say the main phraise that makes everything worse but damn this week sucks so far its its just barley wednesday

I know that it was for the best for him but i dont understand why we had to break up and not just take a break but still be together ive been crying for over an hour straight and ill never get over the pain im in and i hope that i can be with him again i love and need him so much with out him im no longer whole and my world is falling apart im just lost and i want to give up on life